Transitions. That’s the word that has been floating around in my head and in my heart and also frequently coming out of my mouth lately. It’s the word that describes exactly what my life is right now.
Three weeks ago, today, I got married. In one week, I will leave my job I’ve head for three years. In another 2.5 weeks, I’ll be on a plane to Vienna, Austria, where I’ll live for about a year with my new husband.
When I was first engaged, I didn’t really think about the transition that was happening then. I was getting married in about a year, and all I knew was that I had to plan a wedding. Wedding planning became my time, my energy, my happiness, my stress, my life for one year. What I didn’t realize was that the Wedding was replacing this blog. You of course have noticed that I haven’t written nearly as much as I used to. And, frankly, it wasn’t just because I didn’t have the time, it was because it just didn’t seem as important. I had taken a big step last July when I purchased a domain-name and wanted to create a site that was uber-personalized and uber-me. I didn’t get there. By the end of 2010, wedding planning was all I thought about and all I cared about. And now, it’s over.
There is something frequently talked about among brides- the post wedding blues. I have the post-wedding blues. The minute we got back to our hotel after the reception ended, I started feeling an overwhelming sense of sadness. It was over. All my hard work, my time, my energy, my happiness, my life, felt over. A wedding is a celebration of love and marriage but for me it was a project that I didn’t want to see end. Work never gave me the same sense of fufillment that wedding planning did.
And. I’m moving to Vienna. Soon. Another transition. This initially freaked me out post-wedding. The idea of being far from my family, not having anything I have to do, not have that project to focus my every minute on. But as it’s becoming closer and real-er I am getting truly excited about it. I’m signing up for German courses. Alex and I are planning a road trip that will take us through 5 countries in October. I’m thinking about volunteering at a therapeutic riding ranch or at a museum. I’m going to make an album from our engagement photos. I’m going to start research on gluten-free businesses. Big or small, the opportunities and possibilities are endless. And while that sort of terrifies me, it excites me too.
There’s another project that I intend to work on. This blog. Readers, this blog will also experience a transition. This blog was originally intended to be a resource for gluten-free eaters in New York City. I think in my more active months, it was that exactly. Now, though, it’s time for this blog to serve me too. It will be more of a travel journal. The domain will remain the same, but the writing will be a little different. I’m still gluten-free and I’ll still be living in a large city and while I will write about my gluten-free life, my regular life will appear more often as well.
I started this post wanting to write about my wedding. But, it didn’t feel right. It felt too trivial to sum up one year of my life in a post about gluten-free food. So, I won’t do that. When it feels right, I’ll let you in on every detail of the wedding, not just how delicious my cupcakes were.